I’ve often admired people who can be so open and honest about their love.\u00c2\u00a0 I can think of a few people who inspire me to open my heart.\u00c2\u00a0 Unfortunately its not always as easy as it seems.\u00c2\u00a0 I have defensive triggers that slam the door to feelings of the heart.\u00c2\u00a0 That overwhelming sense of passion and adoration that accompanies a relationship\/friendship when you’re so thankful of the connection.\u00c2\u00a0 Yes, that wonderfully warm and fulfilling feeling often turns cold in me as a sort of defense mechanism to assure my survival…. survival of what i’m not sure but i know i mastered this during my childhood and now i can’t seem to knock it.<\/p>\n
I had a dream last night about the love of my life.\u00c2\u00a0 It was an ordinary dream with extraordinary feelings.\u00c2\u00a0 I felt love as i remember it but it stayed with me and didn’t shut off at random intervals.\u00c2\u00a0 I was overwhelmed with the feelings of gratefulness, appreciation and complete infatuation as i should be.\u00c2\u00a0 I woke up knowing what could be… and now i just have to find out how to get there in my awake state.<\/p>\n
There\u00c2\u00a0 are moments when i’ve had these feelings but they never stay and i haven’t mastered how to overcome the wall that falls down between me and my heart.\u00c2\u00a0 I just have to keep squinting hoping that someday i’ll speak the magic words and the wall will shatter away forever.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I’ve often admired people who can be so open and honest about their love.\u00c2\u00a0 I can think of a few people who inspire me to open my heart.\u00c2\u00a0 Unfortunately its not always as easy as it seems.\u00c2\u00a0 I have defensive … Continue reading